Posted in Pre-Natal Appointments, Pregnancy, Treble

33 Weeks!

We just had our 33 week prenatal appointment. Before that, we also had the last ultrasound of this pregnancy. We wouldn’t have gotten another ultrasound, but at out 20 week they could not see all of the baby’s heart and suggested we have the ultrasound redone just to be on the safe side, even though everything else looked great and very normal. We got to see all the parts of little Treble and get a couple of pictures.

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Bottom half of face

Treble is head down and slightly engaged, but I can tell from his movements that he engages and disengages all the time. This is a relief as he was stuck in the oblique position for a while and it made me a little worried he might have the umbilical cord around his neck like Note. He seems to be favoring the ROA position, that is that his spine is on my right side but he is mostly facing towards my back. Note was posterior and that caused back pain, which hurt tremendously while in labor. I’ve done a little work to help get Treble into an optimal position. While I do know there is still plenty of time for him to turn whichever way he pleases, this has been the position he is most in so I am hoping it is the position he will be in for labor and delivery.

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Sex check!

Treble measured right on track for everything, even down to the day on most things. The only thing that he measured differently on was his head. It’s measuring almost a week and a half bigger! He’s estimated to weigh 5 lbs right now, so a little bigger than Note at this stage. We could see his hair in the ultrasound. It was much longer than Note’s at this stage. We could see it waving in the water. It looked like little spikes coming off of his head. I can’t believe how much hair he has already. I really want to see what pattern it naturally falls in. Note had amazing baby hair as hers stood up at the back naturally and made for a very cute little face. We did also get another shot of Treble’s junk. I actually didn’t ask for it this time! But I am glad to be able to see it as I still sometimes get paranoid we will have a surprise in the delivery room.

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Note helped find the heartbeat at our appointment.

Right after the ultrasound, we went to the midwife for our prenatal appointment. It was pretty short, as the last ones have been, and there was really nothing new to report this time. We did meet the newest midwife fellow named Carly. She was a delight and it really was a pleasure meeting her. I do hope that she is one of the ones at my birth as she definitely made me feel comfortable. I do hate that Heather isn’t around anymore, but I hope that she is having a great time with her new husband in a new city!

Overall, a pretty good day. I moved back in with my grandma a couple of weeks ago and I just came over here to spend some time with Frank but I’ll be going back now that I had my appointment. I probably won’t come back again until I have my next appointment, but I will probably see Frank on his days off. I’m not too sure how it will all play out with how the vehicle he’s using now. It isn’t the most reliable, so we shall see if it can make the drive!

I need to make sure to post more updates as I do want to document my pregnancy with Treble better than I did my pregnancy with Note. It is challenging with a toddler around, but I’ll at least need to post pictures!

Posted in Personal, Pre-Natal Appointments, Pregnancy, Treble

Anatomy Scan

We had our anatomy scan on the 22nd. It was a little late due to me having a problem with the company that Holy Family uses for their ultrasounds. I was supposed to receive a call from them to set up my appointment, but I never received said call. Well, on a Friday afternoon, I received a call from them and they were asking my about the appointment I missed. Of course I would miss an appointment I didn’t know about. I told them I had never been informed of the appointment and they told me they tried to call me but apparently I didn’t answer (I do not remember getting a call from them, and my phone didn’t show any missed calls from their number). So why didn’t they try calling me before I missed my appointment? Instead of after? Whatever. I rescheduled, but the earliest they had was three weeks later, so on the 22nd.

The wait was pretty long, longer than I would have liked even though I chugged their required two glasses of water within ten minutes. They took me to the back and into a room where they lowered the lights. The tech put the wand to my belly and I could see the ultrasound image on the screen in front of me. Frank and Note sat in some chairs in the corner. Frank was pretty drugged up and ended up falling asleep for part of the ultrasound, but that was okay. That’s just what happens with these kinds of things.

Seeing Treble on the screen was amazing, as always. I’m always in awe of how much he grows in between scans. Of course we made sure to ask if they could check if Treble was still a boy, even though we had genetic testing done so he is definitely a boy! The picture definitely cleared up all the doubts and it was an interesting angle too. I love that I can see his feet in it. His feet look extra huge, which is so cute because Note had big feet too, but Treble’s feet look even bigger than Note’s did.

There was a scan that didn’t make the print of the bottom half of Treble’s face with his little puffy lips and his nose. Judging from that, he’s going to look just like me, just like Note looks just like me. He’s got very large, chubby cheeks already even though his baby fat is barely starting to fill in. He was measuring a bit bigger than expected for every category, but not enough to cause a change in my due date.

I can’t believe this pregnancy is over halfway done. It won’t be long now before I’m holding this little one in my arms. I really can’t wait for that moment.

Posted in Personal, Pre-Natal Appointments, Pregnancy, Treble

It’s a…

March 28th was my birthday. I turned 24 years old! Woot! We didn’t do anything too special to celebrate it. We went out to Salt to eat and went to watch Batman vs. Superman after. I didn’t really enjoy the movie, but that’s another story for another time. I loved Wonder Woman in that movie however! She stole the show.

IMG_7639On the 29th, we had an appointment with the OB. We went in and it was the usual stuff. Urine sample, weight, all that. Then came the part for the ultrasound. We had decided to find out the sex this time around because we thought it would help make things more real for Note, although we will still be raising the child gender neutral like we did with Note. The tech asked us if we wanted to know the sex, and we said yes. I thought she was asking as a conversational thing, like for future reference. Well, immediately after we said yes, she said, “It’s a boy!”

We were completely shocked but very excited. We didn’t think we would be able to tell this early, but she was completely confident. We get the genetic testing on the 4th next week, which will help confirm, as well as another ultrasound in four weeks where we will be able to check again for a little penis on the screen. I’m so excited that we are having a boy, but also don’t want to believe it in case it is wrong and then I’ll be disappointed.

IMG_7644At least the genetic testing is 99% certain, so we know there will definitely be no error there. She was very confident though, so that gives me some reassurance. I guess our future son is packing if you could see this on the ultrasound screen already! At the bottom of this post, I’ve included some stills from the video we took during the ultrasound. We didn’t get to tape the actual sex reveal part because Note began crying. I’m thinking next appointment, I might just leave them at home or have someone else take care of them for a little bit so Frank and I can go. I really like having a video of the ultrasound. I didn’t have one with Note and it’s something I regret. Actually, I do have a 20 week recording with Note, but they were asleep and didn’t move at all. In this video, we got to see Treble having the hiccups. It was so cute! Treble is very active already.

We also revealed the sex to Frank’s mother. I did the above then left the bottle of detergent in the laundry room on top of the washer. I thought it was a cute and different way to do a simple sex reveal. The next time we will be announcing Treble, they will have been just born! We have decided not to announce this pregnancy on social media and we will have a sip and see instead once Treble is here. We think that will be a much better option the second time around.

Only 198 days to go! I really can’t wait to hold Treble in my arms and these next four weeks will feel like an eternity as we wait for a confirmation on the sex. Fingers crossed this “stays” a boy!

Posted in Health, Personal

Sometimes It Hits Me

Sometimes it hits me, so suddenly and out of nowhere. The ugly beast known as depression rears its head and creeps into the corners of my mind, uninvited.

Today, maybe it’s because I’m tired. We live with other people, a lot of other people, and it’s exhausting. Their ins and outs, their constant nagging, the general atmosphere of the house: all of it combines to leave me completely wiped at the end of the day, my mind and body ready to collapse amidst the pillows and let sleep reset my soul.

But of course it can’t work that easily. Sleep doesn’t come, and by the time it does, exhaustion has set so deep into my bones that once Frank enters the room after a long shift, I hardly stir.

I’m ready to be alone again. I’m not a people person, I never have been. My solitude is precious, and a gift rare received now. I’m ready to have a place of our own that we call home, that draws us towards it, where Note marks their growth on the crowning in their doorway and Treble takes those tentative first steps and Karma sleeps, curled, upon the couch. I’m ready for us to have our own space, to breathe and live, where our existence isn’t measured in dirty dishes and resources wasted but in love and laughs. I’m ready for my child to be seen as more than a burden or a destroyer, and for the stillness to settle around us once everyone goes to bed.

I can’t say when that will all come to pass, but I know it is sometime soon. 

Posted in Note, Personal, Pre-Natal Appointments, Pregnancy, Treble

Official Due Date!

img_4602We went to our first prenatal appointment today! I thought I was 9 weeks 6 days, but when they did the ultrasound, the baby only measured 5 weeks 6 days. I have been using September 15th as my due date based on my period, but I was giving my new, official due date of October 15th. That means that I caught this pregnancy super early! We did get to see the heartbeat, but it was too early to hear it. We should be able to hear it at our next appointment on 1 March. Now that I am getting further along, I’m getting some of the nausea like I had for Note. I suppose with Note it came so much quicker because I was carrying twins in the beginning. Definitely only one baby this time around, unless I lost the twin very early like I did last pregnancy, but I really don’t feel I was ever carrying more than one this pregnancy. Now that I’ve seen our newest addition, I feel a lot of that dread has eased from my heart and I’m properly excited about this pregnancy once more.

 
img_4582I’m kind of sad to lose about a month off the time I had thought I had completed for this pregnancy. That means it will be one extra month before I get to hold this little one in my arms. I know this pregnancy will pass by much faster than Note’s, however, now that I have a little toddler to chase after. I’m also excited by the fact that Ramzi Method says this baby should be a boy. Gender doesn’t matter much to us and we are still going Team Green, but it is something fun to guess. We will know in eight months!

Overall, my symptoms have been getting stronger and stronger, particularly the morning sickness. I found that milk really upsets my stomach more than other foods, so I’m trying to avoid it and get my calcium from other sources. Maybe I will try some kind of almond milk or something. I’m sure Note would like to try that too. Regular milk upsets their stomach.

I had some tenderness in my breast, but that has disappeared. Perhaps in the beginning it had to do with quitting breastfeeding. The weaning went pretty well. Note still asks me for milk sometimes, but I usually just distract them with something else or say “not right now” and they forget about it. I miss breastfeeding them though, and I am considering starting it back up once they get over their yeast infection, as they do have it in their mouth as well, and the last thing I need is for yeast to cultivate on my nipples.

Overall, I’m really enjoying pregnancy! I hope that the morning sickness goes away. I can’t handle it if I have morning sickness as severe and for as long as I did with Note. It will be way too hard to keep up and keep functioning!

 

 

Posted in Personal, Pregnancy, Treble

Week 9: What Makes You Anxious?

This was actually the week eight prompt from my pregnancy app, but I didn’t have much time to sit down and write last week. We went to El Paso to pick up Note, and that really took a lot out of me as it was 12 hours each way.

So, the answer to that question… Although with this pregnancy I’m feeling generally much better than I did with Note, both emotionally and physically, I can’t shake this feeling of impending dread that’s stuck in my heart. I’m so excited about this pregnancy and the chance to be a parent again, but something in my heart tells me “you won’t be taking this baby home.”

It’s very strange. If I had these feelings with Note, I would chalk it up to being afraid of being pregnant right after having a miscarriage. But with this one, I don’t really know why I’m so anxious about it and why I have this feeling. Perhaps it’s because by this time in the pregnancy with Note, I had already had a handful of ultrasounds as well as blood testing done. With this one, due to insurance issues, my first appointment is tomorrow. I’m ridiculously excited to get checked out and make sure that everything looks alright so far. I’ll also get an official due date, as I suspect that I ovulated late and my due date is off by as much as two weeks, which makes a big difference when it comes to birthing time.

If everything looks alright tomorrow, I’m sure that I’ll be counting down the weeks until I hit 24 weeks and baby hits viability. At the very least, they’ll have a chance then.

Here’s a shot of my belly! I think I look much bigger than I actually am when I have clothes on. Usually the belly pictures I take, I’m naked.

 

Posted in Note, Pregnancy

Still Nothing!

I’m 39 weeks and 4 days (which means only THREE more days until my due date!) and I still have no real signs of labor! I am getting pretty impatient to meet my little Note. My midwife says it is common for first time mothers to deliver at around 41 weeks. I am just hoping I don’t make it to 42 weeks, because then I cannot deliver at my birth center anymore and must go to a hospital for delivery.

There have been no real changes in my body. Everything seems to be gearing up towards the big day, but there is no sign when that day will come. I am hoping I am one of the lucky ones who will deliver on my due date. That date holds a lot of significance to me since it is Hailey’s birthday. It would be nice for her and Note to share a birthday.

I’ve had a very hard time staying awake today. I’m up for a couple of hours, and then I’m right back to sleep. I don’t know why I can’t keep my eyes open or my energy up. I guess these are normal problems during pregnancy. I never had the fatigue in the first trimester, so maybe this is the time that I’m having it. I almost got away with it!

3 days to go!